I can’t believe it’s been 15 years since I held you, kissed your cheek, talked with you, laughed with you and took care of you. I miss you so much! We all do. I’m sad that Leslie and Dennis will never really know you except for the stories we tell them. You would love them both, like we do. I’m sad that you didn’t get to finish growing up with Derric and Dallas, you would be so proud of them, like we are.
Some days, especially today your feast day, I feel all the emotions of your loss. On these days I have to sit back and just feel them, I don’t want to cover them up. I’ll always miss you but today I allow myself to reflect more, on your last day, your first day and some of the days in between.
There’s nothing I love more than spending time with my children. When they were younger I missed them when they were in school, not everyday but most days. I loved bringing them to Blockbuster on Friday’s after school. I loved watching movies with them and dancing in the house with them and just talking with them and learning their likes and dislikes.
Fall has always been my favorite time of year, but now it’s punctuated by the worst day. But it was always Madison’s favorite time too, I remember how much she loved Halloween. Her favorite holiday (food wise) though was Thanksgiving. She loved seeing our extended family and eating a whole turkey wing or two.
Madison may not be physically here but my love for her will never die.
