"You're Not Alone"

Madison always had a strong faith in God, stronger than even I realized, until I found her writings. She always walked to the beat of a different drummer. We never pushed her or any of our kids to conform and she took that philosophy to heart. Her favorite shirt had skull & cross bones wearing pink bows. She was sarcastic and very dry in her sense of humor and wit. Not many people knew of her strong faith but her generosity and love was evident. She always prayed for God to relieve her pain. I did too; I just wish He had let her stay with me. My poor baby suffered too long. When I read her poems I know there is only one place she can be right now, in heaven and feeling no pain.

You’re not Alone

When things don’t go your way again and again, and you feel like every time you pray your just wasting time and air. You want to scream and you want to cry. You want to find a place to go and hide away ‘cause you feel like nothing’s going your way; and you feel like you have no place safe to stay.

You always feel lonely in a crowded room. You feel as if your life is flying past you. You want to go back but you know you can’t. You’re struggling just looking for a helping hand. You feel as if all hope is gone, like there is no way to keep going strong.

But you know, you’re not alone. There’s always someone to protect you, a little angel sent to help you. It just goes to show you’re never truly alone. Angels hear you crying from above, they want to hold you and wrap you in God’s endless love.

You’ve always got a friend. Someone to help you pick up again, ‘cause God wants you to know you’re never alone. No you’re never alone, you’re never truly alone, never alone.

"This is My Life"

Two days after Madison passed away, I found some of the poems and songs that she had written over the years. They are beautiful, haunting, prophetic and sad. It was obvious that she mostly wrote when she was sad which makes me glad that I only found about 25 not 250. I wanted to share her beautiful poems with everyone who loved her, so I had my mission. I decided just days after finding the first few poems that I would find them all and create a book called Madison’s Gift. The process of reading these poems was at times gut wrenching, but I typed them all out and have started the process of getting them published. I’d like to share some of her poems here. I’ll be posting them one at a time. I hope you like them.

This is my Life

My life can be unbearable and in no way am I normal. I’m just a girl living in a cruel vindictive world. It hurts to be so strong; sometimes my pain feels like I won’t survive. It feels wrong to be so young with so much strife, but that, that is my life.

No one knows the pain inside, I feel like no one cares, and more than anything I hate when people stare. They look at me with sorrow, there’s pity in their eyes, and what I want to say to them I cover with a smile. It hurts to be so strong; sometimes my pain feels like I won’t survive. It feels wrong to be so young with so much strife, but that, that is my life.

Pain will never leave us, not until we die. With out pain there would be no love or life. Don’t ever let it consume you. Don’t let your pain rule you. Yes it’s hard to be so strong sometimes, but don’t let it keep you from living your life! Yes I know it’s wrong and I know it’s unfair and I know it’s a huge burden to bear.

I know this is true, trust me I know it’s not fair. Just don’t let it rule you, don’t you ever let it consume you, ‘cause this is not my life. No this won’t be my life.