A few nights ago I dreamed about Madison. I rarely have Madison dreams so this was very nice. Actually it was amazing, so I thought I would share it. Just remember it was a dream, some of it is strange, and that’s my subconscious. Some may say that’s just me. I’ll leave out many of the details because if I told them all this post would be extremely long.
We lived in a house where the front entrance was through a restaurant/bar in a mall. I woke up one morning to find that Madison was gone. She didn’t leave a note or say goodbye, she just wasn’t there but her stuff was. No one seemed very concerned and for some reason I felt that I shouldn’t show how anxious I was. So I began my search in the mall of coarse, but did not find her.
After looking for a long time in and around the mall I stopped to rest on a chair in an unoccupied store. In it, was a lot of furniture stacked up as if it were a stage area. Which as it turned out, was a place where 2 people were rehearsing for a play. It was a man and woman. I watched them for a moment then realized that it was the teen actress Hillary Duff. She was practicing for her first big role since Disney. Yes this is a detail that I magically knew.
I left to go back home and ran into my stepdaughter Noelle. She asked if I was going to a wine party later that night. I made it home and saw my sister Cynthia. After we talked it was as if a couple days had passed; I was in my kitchen when Madison walked through the door.
She was absolutely glowing, so happy and smiling and just beautiful. Her hair was thick and wavy and her skin was like ivory. Wow, I just remembered she wasn’t wearing her glasses. She was dressed in a very pale pink dress that almost looked like a terry cloth robe. It was so incredibly soft. I hugged her and asked her where she had been. She said, “Didn’t you see my note, I put in on the frige?” I looked and the refrigerator was completely covered in papers. She pulled off the only one that was colorful and opened it like a brochure. I said, “How was I supposed to see that and know what it was?” She pointed at all the colors and said, “You should have know this would be from me.” Until that moment in my dream I had not noticed the refrigerator.
I grabbed her and hugged her so tight and stroked her hair and face. We sat on the sofa and I told her how much I missed her and loved her. She hugged me back and said, “Oh mama, I love you too.” She looked at me the same way she used to when she thought I was being very silly. This felt wonderfully real; I didn’t want to let go. What was awesome is that this part seemed to last a very long time.
I woke up while hugging her, and it was all right. It felt so good. This was the best dream I’ve ever had with her. It was the first dream where we had a conversation. Actually we didn’t say that much but it was all in the hugs and I could tell she knew and felt it too, just how much I love and miss her. I am so thankful to God for that dream, I needed it.
