Today Madison would have been 31 years old. I still wonder what she would be doing now if she were still here. One thing I know for sure is that she would be very happy for her sister Dallas. Dallas is getting married to a lovely young man named Dennis. Yes once again we are adding to the family. I have a bonus daughter in Leslie and now a bonus son in Dennis. I'm so happy for him to be part of the family but then he's felt like part of the family for a while now. I also know that Madison would have loved Dennis too.
When I think about where we were as a family 14 years ago I could not have imagined today I and we were so wrought with grief that it felt like betrayal to think about happier times to come. But I also know that that is what Madison would have wanted. I'm sure she's quite pleased by how far we've all come from where we were all those years ago after she left us.
I still miss her like crazy and still cry for her or rather for me because I miss her so much. I know she's here with us as we celebrate the marriage of Dallas & Dennis but I wish she were here in a different way so that I could hug her again. I know we all feel that way, those of us who knew her best and love her. I know she gives her blessing to their marriage as do we. I am filled with so much love for my children, all my children.
