Dallas
recently heard someone say that they, "have 2 kids and regret it."
What a terrible thing to say. It made me so sad that a mother would feel
that way, but I was sadder for those 2 children. They may not realize
anything now because considering the approximate age of the girl who admitted
those regrets I'm sure her kids are quite young. The feelings if true,
might affect how the girl interacts with her children. I wonder, will they grow up
feeling unloved or unwanted? Will they wonder, "why is mommy always mad?"
Will they grow up to be angry selfish people? Hopefully the opposite will
be the case.
Here
is a person, it seems, who does not appreciate the amazing gifts she has been
given. After having my first child, Derric, I was overwhelmed by the
awesome responsibility placed in my hands. I take being a mom
seriously. It’s my job to make sure I do all that I can to raise decent
human beings. That means teaching them about love, kindness,
self-discipline, respect and so much more. The best way I know to teach
these things is by example. I admit that I have made mistakes along the
way but having my children has never been one of them. If I regretted my kids I
don’t know that I would care enough to try and be a good mom? I hope what
that girl comes to regret someday soon, is feeling that regret, and saying
those words, or even thinking those thoughts.
You
may be wondering what does this have to do with Madison? In my eyes it
has quite a bit to do with her. I do not regret one moment I spent with
my sweet girl. Even though I have unbelievable pain because of her loss,
I would not trade it, if it meant never knowing her. My Madison truly was
a one of a kind. I cannot fathom never having been her mother. She
helped shape the person I am, as I helped shape who she was. I think
that's how it is with all children and their parents, no matter the age of
either party.
I am
sorry for people who don’t appreciate the lives they have been given; whether
it is their own or their child's.
I am also sorry for all of the new people in our lives that will never
get to know Madison, but through us.
I may have a few regrets at the end of my life but having my children,
will never be one of them.
