It has been very difficult for me to write for the last few months. The words just wouldn’t come even though my heart is always quite full. But since today is the 2nd anniversary of Madison’s passing I feel I should try to write, even if just a little.
We visited the grave today and brought more flowers. Dallas noticed that the ground over Madison was covered in clovers. This made us smile and I remembered at our house in Louisiana the large clover patch by the swing set. One summer the kids found dozens of four leaf clovers; it was amazing.
We all know the meaning of the four-leaf clover is luck, but I wasn’t sure about the three-leaf clover. I remember hearing a story of how St. Patrick used the clover as a teaching tool to explain the Trinity. What I didn’t know is that the three-leaf clover generally means happiness. It makes me smile to think that my girl’s body is covered in happiness. Maybe this was a sign for us today, on the 2-year anniversary, she’s happy, in heaven, with some of our family; but most importantly with God the Father, Jesus His son and the Holy Spirit.
Madison wrote the following poem sometime between 8th grade and beginning of her junior year in high school. I know where she is and that she is happy. (these photos were taken when she was 2)
Jesus Christ
Jesus Christ I wish to see your holy face it’s true.
Jesus Christ I imagine your eyes are skylight blue.
Jesus Christ I love you so, I always have my dear, but fear with all my tears that the end is surely near.
I’ve always dreamed of seeing you, your face so clearly near.
I’ve always loved you my good lord and now I’m finally here.
