What we used to be

What we used to be

You tell me what to do, you tell me what to say, I’m startin to think you only want things your way. But that’s not fair and that’s not right, and if you don’t think I’ll put up a fight, well then what the hell is wrong with you? Why are you acting this way? How dare you think you can treat me this way and still expect me to stay around. How dare you think you control my life. I have enough pain and strife without you screwing things up. My life is tough enough.

You tell me I’m difficult, you say I don’t listen, why are you doing this to me? Where did it all go wrong? What the hell is wrong with us? What has gotten into us? Why are we acting this way? How dare you think you can treat me this way, and still expect me to stay around. How dare you think you control my life. I have enough pain and strife without you screwing things up. So do me a favor and just shut up.

I think it’s better if we go our separate ways, ‘cause you’re not what I thought you were and I’m not what you wanted, you’ve made that pretty clear. So I think it best if we part my dear. Well now I know what’s wrong with us, when push came to shove we weren’t strong enough to stay and that’s why it’s best if we go our separate ways. But a part of you will still remain with me. This will remain a testament to what we used to be.

I think Madison wrote the poem above sometime in the 8th grade. She had such insight, it still blows my mind. I find myself everyday thinking what would Madison have said or done in different situations. Madison never pretended to be anything else other than who she was. If someone had unrealistic expectaions of Madison she made her opinion known. She really felt like why waste time pretending to be something you're not because the truth will always be found out in the long run. She was very mature for her age but had fun being a kid.

She loved her babydolls for a long time. She loved coloring. She loved her stuffed animals till the day she left us. She loved being in Disney and seeing the characters. However she also loved Lifetime original movies, Rocky Horror Picture Show, Vampire Diaries, That 70's Show, sewing, drawing, painting, jewlery making, knitting, and her friends and her family.

We love and miss her everyday. Life is so different without Madison in it.